From the recording The Adventures of iLLa The Sleeping Giant- Past, Present, Future: Volume 1
"War"
The most important battle is within your own soul. This song is the declaration of that civil war—the vow to your darker self: "I see the pattern, but this cycle ends here. I will defeat you."
Lyrics
[Verse 1]
I'm seeing life through a different picture,
Either I'm a let life beat me down, or I'm a get up,
Im Sick and tired of going back and forth like a sit-up
Either I'm a mean what I say or my life ain't gon' change.
ISH , what you saying? Why you bugging?
When you was that dirty little boy, I had you thuggin''
Starving on the streets, I gave you drugs, you hustlin'
Now you tryna act like I ain't do nothing, stop frontin.'
[Pre-Chorus]
I feel this hatred running through my blood,
Said I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired of this,
I gave you too much power, but now I'ma make it clear,
I ain't finna let you beat me as long as I'm breathing,
I'm taking back all you stole, that's mine,
I'm getting to my future, seeing my better life,
And I ain't getting locked up no more,
And doing what you want, in the name of Jesus, I'm getting focused.
[Chorus]
I'm at war,
(yeah)
Im at war with myself,
(yeah)
Lord, I need your help,
(yeah)
Im at war with myself,
Lord, I know this a test, but I need your help
(yeah)
Im at war with myself,
(yeah)
Lord, I need your help,
(yeah)
Im at war with myself,
Lord, I know this a test, but I need your help.,,,
[Verse 2]
I ain't losing no more years of my life,
It's time to put excuses aside and just fight,
Everybody got a battle, but this one right here is mine,
I'm turning all my wrongs to the right, and I'm rolling with Jesus Christ,
ILLA, why you talking crazy?
Remember when we sexed the ladies and got wasted?
Remember when we hit a lick and got faded?
Remember when catts thought they were hard, we broke faces?
Remember?!!!
[Pre-Chorus]
I feel this hatred running through my blood,
Said I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired of this,
I gave you too much power, but now I'ma make it clear,
I ain't finna let you beat me as long as I'm breathing,
I'm taking back all you stole, that's mine,
I'm getting to my future, seeing my better life,
And I ain't getting locked up no more,
And doing what you want, in the name of Jesus, I'm getting focused
[Chorus]
I'm at war,
(yeah)
Im at war with myself,
(yeah)
Lord, I need your help,
(yeah)
Im at war with myself,
Lord, I know this a test, but I need your help
(yeah)
Im at war with myself,
(yeah)
Lord, I need your help,
(yeah)
Im at war with myself,
Lord, I know this a test, but I need your help
[Bridge]
(Okay)
(okay),
(We gon do it like this, this)
(I see you tryna flip the script, script
But me, you ain't getting rid of, rid of.
(Uh-uh)
(Aw, naw lil buddy, ain't no games)
(im Finna show you now this time, I ain't playing)
(You tried to steal my life and purpose that God planned,
Matter of fact, IN THE NAME OF JESUS CHRIST, I REBUKE YOU FOR WHAT YOU'RE SAYING!
[Chorus]
I'm at war,
(yeah)
Im at war with myself,
(yeah)
Lord, I need your help,
(yeah)
Im at war with myself,
Lord, I know this a test, but I need your help
(yeah)
Im at war with myself,
(yeah)
Lord, I need your help,
(yeah)
Im at war with myself,
Lord, I know this a test, but I need your help
I'm at war,
(yeah)
Im at war with myself,
(yeah)
Lord, I need your help,
(yeah)
Im at war with myself,
Lord, I know this a test, but I need your help
(yeah)
Im at war with myself,
(yeah)
Lord, I need your help,
(yeah)
Im at war with myself,
Lord, I know this a test, but I need your help
I'm at war,
(yeah)
Im at war with myself,
(yeah)
Lord, I need your help,
(yeah)
Im at war with myself,
Lord, I know this a test, but I need your help
(yeah)
Im at war with myself,
(yeah)
Lord, I need your help,
(yeah)
Im at war with myself,
Lord, I know this a test, but I need your help